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I lie on my bed with no one to talk to while the light from the outside creeps through my blinds. It's 7:30 am and my mind wanders aimlessly with no trace of stopping. Life is difficult without you. Life was also difficult with you. A couple days ago at this hour i would be sound asleep. But not today. Not this time. How long must one endure emotional pain? How long does it take for someone to realize that there is more to life than you? how long does it take for one to get over the fact that you are now living a seperate life than i? so many questions yet no true answers. Rhetorical. I hate that word. Or do i? Cant i say that i have learned an important part of life when i finally live through the answers to my rhetorical questions? Maybe no question is rhetorical at all. Any question can be answered once it has been experienced. A good friend of mine reminded me that " it gets worse before it can get better." It is like being a drug addict. He was my drug. Rehab was my decision. Recovery takes time and the thought of what adventures i will experience without my 'drug' is motivating. "The grass is ALWAYS greener on the other side." P.S- I have never spoke to a possible national audience on this particular subject but sense blogs are supposed to be pretty personal this area of interest is a big part of me. It's a beautiful day. Good morning world!